I want to delete pretty much every entry in this journal and start fresh..does anyone know how I can do that without deleting each individual entry one by one?! :)

I have been living with my boyfriend for about three months. It's been the worst three months of my life, or pretty close. He's turned into someone I dont know, very controlling and insecure, and I am moving into my own place in a few short days. I have yet to break the news to him though! I am nervous about leaving him, despite how unhappy I've been.

EDIT: To all to are still reading/still care...Casey is ENGAGED. He is engaged to another woman, and when I found out, I cried for hours. Can anyone help me change the "obsessions" side bar? :) I'd really, really appreciate it.

Edit 2: Umm scratch the deleting things and what not....I started a NEW JOURNAL sooo those who are still interested, please add  u_cantfightfate woohooo new beginnings !!!

mood : calm

I dated a guy with a girlfriend for TWO MONTHS. I knew about it too, not the whole time, but should've just left right when i found out...I was at really really low point, and I can't believe I fell SO Hard fo him. I've come to a realization...I don't LIKE nice guys. This guy, jordan was the biggest fucking prick (not at all like that in the beginning) and I just was wrapped around his finger. He was the BEST liar I EVER knew, but it took me two months to figure out that he was the most selfish, disrespectful, worst excuse for a man i'd ever met. Honestly. Things just ended between us, and want to know how? Because he is going back to his hometown, 3 hours away, where his GIRLFRIEND is going to be all summer as well. He lied to me telling me he wanted to be with me soo bad, but he just didnt know how to hurt her (she lived 30 minutes away, and they saw each other very sporadically). I hate that i'm so hurt and sad still,  that this is the hardest thing ive ever done...more later. gotta go.

Does he know
that when he says
"I miss you. You should come snuggle."
it takes every ounce of strength
that I have to say no...

Does he know
I'd give anything for things to be different between us
But I made us the way we are
and you can never go back to "just friends"

Does he know
every time I tell him no
my heart aches
and I wait for the day
No really means no. 

No, this isn't about Casey...obviously. Or Dane. I'm sure a select few of you can figure out who its about. I don't even know where it came from.
This doesn't mean anything...I'm still happy with Casey. Just..something on my mind, something thats always on my mind actually.




mood : calm

Thanks everyone for your ideas on my essay. All I have left is figuring out

Four Main Parts to divide my essay up into. I do not know exactly why my professor wants us to divide it into parts, but she does. Some ideas are either different types of pain, stages of pain, 4 different benefits of pain , ect. Any ideas? thanks!

Edit: Okay, so I think I've decided to talk about 4 types of emotional pain. Feel free to give me suggestions, here are some ideas I've came up with so far.
1. Heartbreak
2. Death of a loved one
3. Tragedy (ie: 9/11, Hurricane Katrina, School Shootings)

I defintley need at least onemore, but any suggestions will help!

Oh, and uh..this first draft is due Thursday, so I have to get it done tomorrow!! Please help! Thanks.


OH and um...real update coming soon. Tomorrow hopefully. I have so much to tell everyone, you will probably be in shock.

Essay Help!

I am writing an essay, and my topic is pain. I am supposed to show 4 ways/examples/benefits of pain. I need help coming up with ideas.
Please help me!! I need to start and get a draft done tonight!

Last night was so much fun. My friend Kathleen and I hung out with some good friends, and we participated in more then one illegal activity (ie:drinking/getting highhh). Today, I went to school in borrowed men's sweatpants and sweatshirt. We had to stay at one of our friends house because I was in no shape to drive home. I had the same makeup on from last night, and I really looked attractive. ahaha NOT. I also think I failed my math test. Joy. BUT last night was beyond fun, and we're trying to convince our friend to have a party friday night at his new house so we can repeat the extreme amount of fun we had. I didnt go to hisory today, I desperatley needed a shower and stuff, and I have to work at 4. I'm trying to get caught up on laundry and house work, but I don't really see that happening between now and when I have to leave.

Umm...and I feel kind of weird sometimes talking about some of my expierences, ie: partying,drinking, ect and I'm considering doing a filter...If you have a problem with hearing about that kind of stuff, let me know k?

So...I swear I am going to make a big ol'update here in a bit tonight!!! I am supposed to be cleaning the house. And making my boyfriend cookies. Bahhaha. Watch for an update soon.

I've been a naughty girl...

I am in a pretty good mood. Casey and I had a very nice day!!

We finally got to sleep in, and when we woke up, we had nothing we had to do. We had nowhere to be, no one to meet, and the day was open! It was great. :)

We got up and moving around 10:30, and picked up the house, watched tv, and took a shower. We decided to go out to lunch to our favorite little Mexican place. Then we went to the "Karcher Mall" which is a really little mall, more like a shopping center that is only like 15 minutes away. The main mall is in Boise, about 30 minutes away, but its WAY better. I didn't find anything, but Casey bought a couple things.

After we went to lunch and to the mall, we came home and I read and Casey watched a little TV. Then my mom called and asked if we'd like to go to Boise to eat at Olive Garden! Heck yes we would!! So we met her there at 6, and after dinner we went to the book store and Casey bought that book, Reclaiming Desire: 4 keys to Finding Your Lost Libido. I am really hoping it will help out a lot.

I am in the middle of the book We Love Each Other, But... It is seriously an awesome book and I DEFINITLEY recommend it to all you girls that are in a relationship, even IF you aren't having problems. It has all sorts of tips and keys to relationships . I honestly think that it will improve anyone's relationship.

Casey just bought a video game for his computer, and while I was at Wal-Mart, I saw the Nightlife expansion pack and seriously wanted to buy it. But I spent way too much money this weekend, so I need to wait til I get paid Wednesday. Then I will consider it!

OH! As I mentioned yesterday, tomorrow I am starting a little food/exercize journal. My good friend Melissa (xxmisslissaxx) is doing it with me. Everyday, we are going to IM each other and share what we ate, how many calories and if we worked out, what we did and how many calories were burned. If anyone is interested in joing us, comment or IM me at BrittWhat06!!

Anyways, I have pictures of all the things I bought yesterday. Diego and Addie both decided to be the models in the pictures, and everything I laid down to take a picture of, one of them had to get in the middle. Hahah.

( Featuring new faces in Modeling: Diego and Addie! )

mood : satisfied

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k thanks bye.

Hi buddies of mine. I joined this super amazing community mission101. It inspired me to create a list of 101 things to do in 1001 days!!!!! Start Date: June 27, 2006
End Date: Tuesday, March 24, 2009

( And the list goes on )
I've decided to do at LEAST monthly updates on my progress, but if I accomplish a lot, or a big task, I may just update more!!!